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COMPLICATED
Written, Produced and Performed by Derrick DMAR Matin


[RAP Intro Verse]
Yo, she hit me with the vibe, eyes sparkin' like the city lights
Said, "You free tonight?" I paused, caught between the fight
Of truth and the shuffle, my mind doin' double-dutch
Heart in a scuffle, words stickin', ain't sayin' much

I mean, there's someone else, but the lines blur like smog
Not clean, not clear, it’s a hazy kinda fog
You deserve the truth, not a riddle or a game
But the story’s got twists, girl, it ain't just my name

[Chorus]
It’s complicated
That’s all I can say
Not black or white
Just shades of gray
I’m here
I’m not
I’m caught halfway
It’s complicated
Please don’t walk away


[Verse]
You ask me where I stand
I shift my feet
Like sand in the hourglass
It’s never neat
I try to say it plain
But the words retreat

[Chorus]
It’s complicated
That’s all I can say
Not black or white
Just shades of gray
I’m here
I’m not
I’m caught halfway
It’s complicated
Please don’t walk away

[Verse 2]
I could tell you stories
But they’d blur the lines
Like a clock that ticks but skips the time
I’m not free
But I’m not confined

[Chorus]
It’s complicated
That’s all I can say
Not black or white
Just shades of gray
I’m here
I’m not
I’m caught halfway
It’s complicated
Please don’t walk away

Bridge
It’s not a no
It’s not a yes
It’s tangled threads
It’s a little mess

It’s not a chain
It’s not a wall
It’s something in-between
Can’t name it at all


Rap [Verse]
Yo, the web I'm in, tangled like my earbuds in my pocket
Words knotted, tryna explain, but can't unlock it
She askin' if I'm free, but freedom ain't my zone
Got a chain on my heart, still pickin' the lock alone

It's brunch with my past, dinner with my doubt
Dessert is a future I can't figure out
I want to say I'm open, but the door’s half-shut
A maze in my chest, every turn is a rut

[Chorus]
It’s complicated
That’s all I can say
Not black or white
Just shades of gray
I’m here
I’m not
I’m caught halfway
It’s complicated
Please don’t walk away